If you had one million dollars in your bank account and no debt, what would you be doing? What would you do with that money? Would you still be doing the things you are doing now?
I’ve asked myself these question a few times. For the last question the answer has always been no. But I have always looked at going to college as my backup plan. You never know what my happen tomorrow.
Growing up, I’ve been programmed to live life in a certain order.
- go to school
- get a job
- marry
- work
- retire
- travel
No other way but that. That’s how my mind sees life. But my heart pushes against every day I wake up and think to myself, “What are you doing that is taking you one step closer to your happiness?”. I’m happy to say blogging is an answer. But it’s not all that I can be doing in this moment. My mind is in the set of school and work is the only thing you should be doing right now. It’s come to the point that when I am doing something else, I feel guilty and anxiety to the upmost level. Can you believe that? I feel guilty for living life.
Looking into the year of 2017, I can feel that a lot is going to change. I am going to be different. I am going to live. That doesn’t mean giving up school or work. This just means I am going to take time out of each day to live for me and not for society.
2017 is going to represent more than the goal of getting good grades. It’s going to represent me diving into finding out who I am and who I want to become. My likes and dislikes. Connecting mind and body. All in all finding who I am. I encourage you to do the same.
(Side note and random note but happy note, at this time, my mother told me to tell you guys hi)
For long periods of time we program ourselves to be what society wants us to be, not what we want to be or what makes us happy. Then when we look back our sentence starts off with “I wish” or “I should have”. When are you going to take the time to live? Read that book you want to read so badly. Start that project. Wear that outfit that others find weird.
If we continue to conform we eventually lose ourselves. If your’e like me and do things or enroll in certain things to please others and hide the things you do like from others you can lose yourself rather quickly. Let’s not continue to do that in 2017. Heck, let’s not do that from this point forward. Let’s take the time to find out our why.
