First day of school was a success!! While going through the day, especially starting the day, I have noticed a few things around me. I make things so much harder than they should be. I came to the obvious realization when I couldn’t find any clothes to wear. Yet both my closet, laundry room, and drawers in the guest room had things of mine that I didn’t use and didn’t love to wear.
As I looked around the house more and just reflecting on myself personally, I noticed it applied in many areas of my life. My own insecurities or secret thoughts or dreams being clouded by judgement, fear, and most importantly an unhealthy environment that I had created around me. The biggest unhealthy factor-being my temple, the body that God gave me and spreading that bad energy and depression throughout my environment.
I’m not saying its wrong to have certain things. We know I love my fashion and beauty. But it has come to be a cover up rather than a hobby. For some people they could have a healthy habit of wearing makeup everyday and wearing the highest luxury brand items. For me, when I make a daily habit of that, I create an unhealthy threshold of what is expected of me. And if that isn’t met, in my head I am no longer worthy of anything and am not good enough. When I reflect on that, I come to the realization that throughout my years of being on this earth, I have treated the most raw version of myself that I am not enough with just me alone.
I have also noticed how much that has made me spend or get items that I am not completely in love with in the thought that it would maybe “change things” or “feel a void that I think is there”. Thus resulting in me settling for something less instead of shooting for something that I love and that will benefit me feeling better about me.
In saying that, this marks my decluttering stage. I’ve always had a fascination on minimalistic living, but I’m going to take baby steps and see where God takes me. Time for a complete life revamp, including my health, my food intake, and just mental revamp as well!!
I hope this journey will be inspiring to someone and I can’t wait to see what the future holds!
