When making the title to this post, it took me a minute to figure out how to describe my current status in life. While trying to figure it out, it became apparent to me how difficult I make my life on a daily basis. Watching reality tv and feeding the bitter envious part of me by obsessing over what others had that I didn’t really consumed me these past few months. Then it clicked. Why does all this matter?
We put so much pressure on ourselves based on what others think and the satisfaction of others. That’s what I had been doing this entire time. Being honest with myself, it’s why I stopped writing and creating. It’s why I stopped dreaming. Looking myself in the mirror and knowing who I am now is nearly impossible. Having trouble figuring out who I am and what I am meant to be doing on this earth has been the question I have been asking myself lately. I’m sure I’m not the only one asking this question either. I noticed as I filled my mind with others opinions and trends and likes, I began to lose track of my own. Thus, further complicating things for me in the long run.
Looking at life the way it is, it’s easy to say we put value on such little things. Don’t get me wrong, having nice things are awesome, I myself love to have nice quality products. But they don’t make me. Our personality, hearts, and minds make us. For those are the things we can forever keep. If you look around, life if really precious.
Even the smallest things can have such great value. We just have to take the time to look at them. Realizing this lesson of focusing on the simple things has really changed the way I see life itself. It can be easy, or we can make it difficult. I choose the path that makes me the happiest. I may not know where that will take me just yet, but I love a good mystery and a healthy challenge.
One thing is for sure, I will never give up my passions for the satisfaction of someone else. It’s also okay for me to love doing multiple things. Rather I end up spending my life as a medical provider, a writer, creator, or all in between… I choose to be at peace within myself. You can only change yourself. Peace isn’t given to you, its something you personally strive for and work towards in such a chaotic society we live in. Choose yourself and make your dream a reality. Its very simple. Choose you.
With Love and many Blessings
Andrea Othela xoxo
