The First Week Back
At first I was excited. I came back strong! Prepared to work hard and sacrifice my time. When I almost quit the concept of sacrifice was something I could never wrap my head around. Now, I am realizing only after the first week, my life will be drastically different from my coworkers and peers. While they will be going out every weekend, date night for me will have to include a textbook with a candle to set the mood for how much reading I will have to endure.
Of course it started off right after work. I initially beat myself up for deciding to work the night before I had class between the hours of 9-4:15. But in the end I think I shall take it as a blessing. My job can have bad moments, but this night I used it as motivation. I was fighting to further myself in the medical field. One day, it’ll be worth it.
” If you don’t sacrifice for what you want. What you want will become the sacrifice” – Unknown
Giving myself a chance
Being that the semester just started, I know the feeling I have is fleeting. I know there will be days I question my decision for going back to school. Even as I write this I am overwhelmed.
But with that feeling, for the first time, I have hope in myself. Finally allowing myself the chance to prove to MYSELF that I am worthy of good things. Self-sabotage and lack of love for myself weighed heavily on me last year. It has been something I have carried for years but really took me to rock bottom. Finding God in the midst of all of this turned out to be the saving grace and light at the end of the tunnel.
Now as I face this new phase of my life and of myself, it is time I dig deep to find my strength in Christ in order to find strength in myself.
For those of you that think that you are too old, or not talented enough, too busy, or just any other thing you can think of, I want to use this space to encourage you. I gave myself every excuse in the book.
I want to be a mother
I want to get married
I want children
I want to be a writer and author
I want to be a business woman
How is medicine going to fit into all of this?
I finally got the answer.
Whatever God has for your life, if it is His purpose for you, time will bend to allow you to conquer all your dreams. So don’t give up. We all need you!
